.: Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds :.

Monday, May 31, 2010

I ♥ Squadron 5:24 PM

On 310510, we celebrate our 36months together, he proposed. For hand in marriage. It was sweet of him, and memorable, as I entered and saw the words on the wall. I was stunned, as I didn't know he would do me a proposal, after months of discussing about our wedding.

I'm elated, but I can't imagine myself as a wife, and a mother yet.

Monday, May 03, 2010

I ♥ Squadron 3:58 AM

I am a big mistake.

I hate growing up. I dread growing into an adult. Being in school is much fun. Once you grow up, things change drastically. Tho I've been working for almost 3 years now, I'm still in the denial.

Your ego adds up, you start to worry so much about money. You work your life out for money. It's like you can't live if you have no more money in your account.

Well, I don't know. But I don't fancy changes.

Monday, December 14, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 1:26 AM

Super excited for my upcoming 21st birthday yay!

Squadron has been doing alot of missing in action, and I know why! Yippe, he seems excited, that he has blurted out some of the ideas, ohh well. We shall see, why he has in store for me on your 5days celebration!

Friday, November 20, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 12:48 AM

Mom,

You're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do most anything;
You're the master of every task.

You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.

I love you more than you know;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 11:45 AM

So no wonder he had alot of flings and dates, he's never settled in for those girls and proposed the idea of marriage. No wonder he is in his 30s, but hasn't settled down for one.

Say it choosy, he say it's Choosing It Wise For A Lifetime Partner.

I still sometimes wonder in distress, what was it that a then 19year old girl sees in that very older man. Maybe cause she gave up in younger men, more rather, gave up in boys?
I wasn't in and out of relationship, young and fast. I've had my few experiences, with 1 relationship, and 1 forbidden love.
Oh well, I don't know how I did fell in love with him, but I know why.

Age 19, he thinks I'm rather naive. I say I'm much more matured than girls my age then, but let's just put it, he doesn't trust my words that very much.

I'm still quite angry, more sad over the news of his secret PI. It was two years ago, but I just got to know about it now, why?
If you took soo long to tell me this, why even tell me at all?

Well I don't know. I can't fix a PI just to get back to him now, should I?
It's a ridiculous idea, as much as I hate myself being stalked mysterious possible way, I hate doing that to others too.

Maybe this is the part of the relationship where HE tests our strength, love and preseverance. Step deeper to our weakness and wait for the end result.

As much of all that he make me wanna strangle him sometimes, when I look back at him, I know why I love him.

Friday, August 28, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 11:59 PM

Both of us were on leave today, and we celebrated Squadron's actual birthday.

Head down to Vivo, and iftar at Barcelos. Food was tremendous delicious, and we had too much wedges. Movies, and head back.

Happy 34th Birthday Hisham (=

Monday, August 10, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 10:00 PM

Happy Birthday Squadron and Singapore.

Celebrated Squadron's 34th a lil bit earlier than usual. Since Ramadan is upcoming soon.

Made a simple birthday handmade gift for him, consisting of 34 solo pics of him, with a hand drawn bleeding heart, self-painted hard board and with the help of the card board pieces. The job wasn't a tedious one, and is my self-achivement for being able to draw such a nice heart after years since me and drawing pencil felt love again.

Start to setup the table for dinner, a lil for the day 1 surprise. Of course, pull off the act and lying to Squadron was the toughest part, he had figured out I didn't go to work that day anyway.

Candlelit dinner, and a lil emotional moments when he starts opening his gift

The frame, ltd adidas shoes, braun buffle wallet, and a CD consisting of songs of heartfelt words and a birthday card as the CD cover.

Movies after dinner, before heading back.

Day 2, after I ended my Saturday shift, and Squadron attended a wedding reception, dressed up and headed down to Sofra Turkish. Headed back as he was a lil unwell.

Day 3, postponed my plans for adventure and head down to SG Rivers for bumboat ride. Took a minute to run 200m to catch the fireworks.Headed down to Vivo for movies.

Day 4, we head down to Science Centre for Snow City, Omni and Da Vinci showcase.

Next year shall be another wonderful celebration. May you stay in pink of health, and achieve your dreams one day (=

Thursday, July 23, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 10:38 AM

Hi,

I want to compliment Ms Shakilah who has provided prompt and valuable information to my questions asked yesterday. She is very knowledgeable and provide answers with clear explanations, which we can easily understand as a layman.
Well done and keep it up ! Shakilah.

Best regards.
Christopher Tan
CBG - Network Planning & Deployment
DBS Bank Ltd
DBS. Living, Breathing Asia

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 12:05 PM

Settled down with Braun Buffle wallet, and Adidas shoes for gift, planned few events for the entire four days, I'm left with the restaurant we should pay a visit to.
Since all fine dining places, are mostly non-halal. I have to set down with a couple. Carousel and StraitsKitchen are like commonplaces for us, hence, I'm considering Tiffany Cafe, Furama or The Song of India. Can I have a poll please? Hahaha

Sunday, July 12, 2009

I ♥ Squadron 10:16 PM

I'm angry. I'm angry at the guy who took, hold, tore and broke my heart 2 and half years back. Why? Cause you tormented me. And you really made me in such a state I'm in. Thanks to you, my mentality has been dismantled, and I have to reassemble them back to one, and I'm getting pissed at it. You are such a goner. Goner goner long goner (*&^!@#$%^&*(!!!!!!!!!!!

I ♥ Squadron 10:00 PM

There has been soo many things that took place I've not wrote about.

Life has been disturbing. With the current changes and the current physical/mental state I'm in, I'm about to go nuts if not with the help of Squadron.

Just with my swollen knee, which by the way, has been three weeks and counting. With addition to my consitent back pains, I've not been running since the last tried but failed run, which brought me down to knees and in tears of terror pain. I've just started my cardio workout for the big 21km, but now I've been advised and instructed to stop training, but to attend therapy, which will take eons to recover. I shall put 6months, but since my runner's knee has been ongoing for years before my breakdown, my estimation would be a year half.

I'm not at my best physical state, even climbing up few steps seems like a flight of it.

I wish I could start tying back my laces, blast my ipod and feel the wind in my hair again.