Imperfections

2010-05-31T17:24:00.000-07:00

On 310510, we celebrate our 36months together, he proposed. For hand in marriage. It was sweet of him, and memorable, as I entered and saw the words on the wall. I was stunned, as I didn't know he would do me a proposal, after months of discussing about our wedding.

I'm elated, but I can't imagine myself as a wife, and a mother yet.

2010-05-03T03:58:00.000-07:00

I am a big mistake.

I hate growing up. I dread growing into an adult. Being in school is much fun. Once you grow up, things change drastically. Tho I've been working for almost 3 years now, I'm still in the denial.

Your ego adds up, you start to worry so much about money. You work your life out for money. It's like you can't live if you have no more money in your account.

Well, I don't know. But I don't fancy changes.

2009-12-14T01:26:00.000-08:00

Super excited for my upcoming 21st birthday yay!

Squadron has been doing alot of missing in action, and I know why! Yippe, he seems excited, that he has blurted out some of the ideas, ohh well. We shall see, why he has in store for me on your 5days celebration!

2009-11-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

Mom,

You're a wonderful mother,
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

You're patient when I'm foolish;
You give guidance when I ask;
It seems you can do most anything;
You're the master of every task.

You're a dependable source of comfort;
You're my cushion when I fall.
You help in times of trouble;
You support me whenever I call.

I love you more than you know;
You have my total respect.
If I had my choice of mothers,
You'd be the one I'd select!

2009-09-03T11:45:00.000-07:00

So no wonder he had alot of flings and dates, he's never settled in for those girls and proposed the idea of marriage. No wonder he is in his 30s, but hasn't settled down for one.

Say it choosy, he say it's Choosing It Wise For A Lifetime Partner.

I still sometimes wonder in distress, what was it that a then 19year old girl sees in that very older man. Maybe cause she gave up in younger men, more rather, gave up in boys?
I wasn't in and out of relationship, young and fast. I've had my few experiences, with 1 relationship, and 1 forbidden love.
Oh well, I don't know how I did fell in love with him, but I know why.

Age 19, he thinks I'm rather naive. I say I'm much more matured than girls my age then, but let's just put it, he doesn't trust my words that very much.

I'm still quite angry, more sad over the news of his secret PI. It was two years ago, but I just got to know about it now, why?
If you took soo long to tell me this, why even tell me at all?

Well I don't know. I can't fix a PI just to get back to him now, should I?
It's a ridiculous idea, as much as I hate myself being stalked mysterious possible way, I hate doing that to others too.

Maybe this is the part of the relationship where HE tests our strength, love and preseverance. Step deeper to our weakness and wait for the end result.

As much of all that he make me wanna strangle him sometimes, when I look back at him, I know why I love him.

2009-08-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

Both of us were on leave today, and we celebrated Squadron's actual birthday.

Head down to Vivo, and iftar at Barcelos. Food was tremendous delicious, and we had too much wedges. Movies, and head back.

Happy 34th Birthday Hisham (=

2009-08-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Squadron and Singapore.

Celebrated Squadron's 34th a lil bit earlier than usual. Since Ramadan is upcoming soon.

Made a simple birthday handmade gift for him, consisting of 34 solo pics of him, with a hand drawn bleeding heart, self-painted hard board and with the help of the card board pieces. The job wasn't a tedious one, and is my self-achivement for being able to draw such a nice heart after years since me and drawing pencil felt love again.

Start to setup the table for dinner, a lil for the day 1 surprise. Of course, pull off the act and lying to Squadron was the toughest part, he had figured out I didn't go to work that day anyway.

Candlelit dinner, and a lil emotional moments when he starts opening his gift

The frame, ltd adidas shoes, braun buffle wallet, and a CD consisting of songs of heartfelt words and a birthday card as the CD cover.

Movies after dinner, before heading back.

Day 2, after I ended my Saturday shift, and Squadron attended a wedding reception, dressed up and headed down to Sofra Turkish. Headed back as he was a lil unwell.

Day 3, postponed my plans for adventure and head down to SG Rivers for bumboat ride. Took a minute to run 200m to catch the fireworks.Headed down to Vivo for movies.

Day 4, we head down to Science Centre for Snow City, Omni and Da Vinci showcase.

Next year shall be another wonderful celebration. May you stay in pink of health, and achieve your dreams one day (=

2009-07-23T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hi,

I want to compliment Ms Shakilah who has provided prompt and valuable information to my questions asked yesterday. She is very knowledgeable and provide answers with clear explanations, which we can easily understand as a layman.
Well done and keep it up ! Shakilah.

Best regards.
Christopher Tan
CBG - Network Planning & Deployment
DBS Bank Ltd
DBS. Living, Breathing Asia

2009-07-14T12:05:00.000-07:00

Settled down with Braun Buffle wallet, and Adidas shoes for gift, planned few events for the entire four days, I'm left with the restaurant we should pay a visit to.
Since all fine dining places, are mostly non-halal. I have to set down with a couple. Carousel and StraitsKitchen are like commonplaces for us, hence, I'm considering Tiffany Cafe, Furama or The Song of India. Can I have a poll please? Hahaha

2009-07-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

I'm angry. I'm angry at the guy who took, hold, tore and broke my heart 2 and half years back. Why? Cause you tormented me. And you really made me in such a state I'm in. Thanks to you, my mentality has been dismantled, and I have to reassemble them back to one, and I'm getting pissed at it. You are such a goner. Goner goner long goner (*&^!@#$%^&*(!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

There has been soo many things that took place I've not wrote about.

Life has been disturbing. With the current changes and the current physical/mental state I'm in, I'm about to go nuts if not with the help of Squadron.

Just with my swollen knee, which by the way, has been three weeks and counting. With addition to my consitent back pains, I've not been running since the last tried but failed run, which brought me down to knees and in tears of terror pain. I've just started my cardio workout for the big 21km, but now I've been advised and instructed to stop training, but to attend therapy, which will take eons to recover. I shall put 6months, but since my runner's knee has been ongoing for years before my breakdown, my estimation would be a year half.

I'm not at my best physical state, even climbing up few steps seems like a flight of it.

I wish I could start tying back my laces, blast my ipod and feel the wind in my hair again.

2009-07-07T22:19:00.000-07:00

My dear sister has graduated with 2nd class Honors, and I'm honored to be her sister! My parents are such happy happy parents, and has done my parents proud. Congrats my thai-breed sister. Tho you are the weirdest in the family, you have proven that your weirdness has turn you to be a genius.

2009-06-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

Was running along ECP, then a sharp pain pull me down to a halt. There it was, my knee. I still tried to continue on running, till half way, i had to sit down, and there comes my knee, such sharp pain, felt like it's going to dislocate anytime soon.

Then when I sat down after training, I realised, my knee has became so swollen. My trainer banned me from sports commitment, till I recover. Sports injury may take months, perhaps years. Sigh, I have to cancel all my marathons, but I pray I can join the 100K walk this year.

2009-06-06T23:59:00.000-07:00

That heavysleeper was late,and I didn't went for my first pract 4. So Squadron and I headed for YTF breakfast nearby Kembangan. The YTF was a disappointment, tho the shop speacial's dish was YTF. Home, and changed. Met Sheera and went around TOne to look for artsy materials for card making. Sat at TM SB, and Sheera starts sketching Fid's face. Constrain by time, we pledge to meet again. Headed back home, changed and Squadron came by to fetch me. To Bugis for quick 30mins shopping which I managed to get a jeans and two tops (=

All the way to Cineleisure for Hannah Montana. The movie is a must-watch. Given that Squadron is not a fan of Hannah Montana, he rated the movie 4popcorns of 5.

Such a lazy Saturday

2009-05-31T22:59:00.000-07:00

This year's annyversary was personal. Spent three days celebrating, with moments of truth and clearing of misjudgment.

Tho my plans for a massive anny celebration didn't exact went on, it was a nice celebration planned by Squadron. We shall plan for the next big event, that is, your birthday Squadron (=

We are TWO!

2009-05-26T12:00:00.000-07:00

I've been sick for the past one week, does that make me victim of H1N1?

Oh well, but I still now have to start pulling up socks and tie my laces back together. It's been about a whole month since I start tracking my progress, I think I drop back zero since my last marathon.

Firstly, I think I need to get performance socks, and soon another NB running shoes.

When active, feet produce 4 to 6 ounces of perspiration a day, no wonder my feet stinks.

And I pray that I recover from runner's knee. Should I engage a PT? Maybe Dol can help.

2009-05-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

Daddy sent me to CDC in the morning. And oh boy! Alhamdulilah, I've managed to overcome pract3, and I'm now back on track. To Pract4! Yayness. No more upslopes and spinning figure8, I'm off to planks and E-brakes! Maybe I need my daddy to send me to more CDCs!

Chill for the moment, dressed met EC @ SBTM. Our planned for 24th for Farhan's bdae was cancelled, and so as for 31st. Our EC gathering is tedious work to plan. Paintball is another.

So we came up to 21st June, hopefully by then they have some slots.

Squadron came to join, and we dinner @ LJ, before Night At The Museum 2 @ GV. The movie was awesome. I never get bored watching part 1 over and over again, I wonder whhy.

Headed home therafter.

2009-05-23T20:00:00.000-07:00

There was this shoe, Malini and Alice Suede. It became your such fascination. The must-have shoes, the must wear outfit.
That two pair of shoes, that I desire to have, but couldn't have.
But when you heard the retailers are having them on more than 50% sale, wouldn't you go grab and buy both pairs together?
Wouldn't you? Wouldn't you?

And that was where I head to.

CROCS EXPO SALE!

After breakfast @ Mac's two trips to Petrol Kiosks and AMK, with Squadron we joined the long q of 30mins. And there I was. The sale. I felt like I was in a dream. Thinking of the two shoes I am about to own. For both which I had dreams of owning two pairs each. Booth after booth I went, in search for my size. Size 5, size 6. Then I went around and around. I just had to drag Squadron with me. But I found none. No Malindi, no Alice Suede. Then Squadron asked the salesperson. And she happily said "Oh sorry, Malindi and Alice are both sold out the first 3hrs. You can come again tomorrow!"

What?! OOS?! How can CROCS do this to me?! And Squadron didn't get his either, as we were both in such remorse.

I only got for my mom CROCS @ $15. Such cheap retail SALE. And I didn't get ANY!

And I willingly stayed at home alone, while Squadron sent letters, and my parents head out.

2009-05-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

There was, the BCP testing. Hah, crazy Sunday. Bunch of staffs testing connection to DC.
My suppose to be beautiful Sunday was being in office.

Changed after work, the bathing facility here is quite comfy (= Train ride all the way to City Hall. It's been eons, then I suddenly remembered, since I visited the town by public. The memories of CTHall back when I was working there.

So I wandered around Marina Sqr, thinking of the perfect anny gift in mind. And I wandered and wonder, if victorinox would be such a wonderful idea. Wallets, shoes are more for birthday to me, so I'll stick to couple gifts more likely for anny.

Then I finally settled for victorinox and a mini torch, one for him and myself. And an order from captivat3d for personalised bottle caps. Not any bottle caps, bottle caps that place your pictures on.

Squadron fetched me and we decide for Soto Ayam @ Railway. There wasn't a crowd there, but halfway thru my journey, then I remembered of the Arts Festival. My yearly custom celebration. I missed it totall. Screw WORK!

Oh well, then I ride to Tiong Bahru to check Linked. Pretty!

2009-05-16T23:00:00.000-07:00

Squadron was working the whole day today. And I had EC meetup @ SB TM. Discussing about Farhan's upcoming 21st. Man the group I miss, our weekly SB chilling moments.

So we came up with Farhan-like activity. For paintball, and dinner @ 18chefs. I just hope that the date for 24th this month is confirmed availability for ReD Dynasty.

2009-05-12T10:49:00.000-07:00

Typo error the LJ address, then I was brought to this:

Page Not Found
Narrator:In A.D. 2006, Web was beginning.
Captain: What happen ?
Mechanic: Somebody set up us the journal.
Operator: We get signal.
Captain: What !
Operator: Main browser turn on.
Captain: It's you !!
CATS: How are you users !!
CATS: All your base are belong to Frank.
CATS: You are on the way to 404.Captain: What you say !!
CATS: You have no chance to reach your page. Make your spelling correct.
CATS: Ha Ha Ha Ha ....

2009-05-12T03:31:00.000-07:00

I still haven't plan for my anny! And I just remembered. Gosh. Gosh!

2009-05-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

With Squadron we head to vivo to collect my pants from Zara. And of course, when you step in the place, you will tend to buy something. The clothes are such beauty, and that costed me an organic cotton top. Hehehe

With Six for hangbag, and Squadron's option for me to get a funky earring. Another unexpected purchase.

F21 to get a nail file, 'cause of that salesguy who intro me a nail product that keeps your nail looking superly healthy, which I couldn't stop looking at.

Planned to head to Mac's for late dinner, then I saw Tangs and decide to look at few bags for the sake of looking. Then I saw such a nice corporate handbag, I fell in love with such corporate things, I wonder why. I wonder why I got so lucky Squadron decide to get it for me. Hehehe

Dinner @ Mac's, we talked about friendship. Knowing physcology can be such reward, you can really know about the person's true personality. And I see that a friend of mine, has changed. Maybe due to different family status? I suppose.

And Squadron's new favourite phase "Eh2, dah pandai melawa lah my wife. Da besar lah dia."
Heheh dude, people marry grown up girls, you marry a growing up girl. Lol!

2009-05-11T01:47:00.000-07:00

Its a lie if a
girl doesn't have
a dream guy,

The guy she
pictures and hopes
to meet one day.

Diff girl have
diff prospect in
what he must have,

But what counts
is how the guy
just melt her away.

If it comes to
real love these
prospects disappear,

That dream guy
suddenly the
girl dnt remember.

But what counts
is how the guy
just melt her away,

For those
imperfections just
make her everyday.

Love U (=

Sender: Shakilah Sayang

2009-05-10T23:10:00.000-07:00

Squadron had to work today, due to mechanical breakdown back at his office.

Met Li, Fy, Siti over at SB TM, to plan and discuss regards to Farhan's 21st this 26May. Since we never really had one bdae bash specially for that guy, I decide to make a plan and possible for us to the least, show him that he truly matter to us. He's been the most secretive, unpredictable person, and he even managed to keep his 18months relationship a secret from us. Gosh!

So we came up with the idea to PaintBall, since I believe that it's so him, and 18chefs with a book about love for his gift and cake for the jubilation.

Now, off to plan and start emailing! It's so high tech these days.

At 0430 next morning, Squadron is still butting off in the office. One problem after another. I think he work of almost 23hrs straight.

2009-05-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

Squadron decides to bet, if he can ever wake up early to send me to work. Well, impressively, he did. Packed with breakfast. Hehehe

I decide to walk around TCentral, look for a gift for my dear Mesh's 21st. I kept on thinking that her jubilation was today, silly me. There was nothing much, at Tamp1, it was the usual.

Head back, laze, midnight booked tickets to Jgn Tegur. Squadron was working till late, for the longest time, I took the train to Somerset. Such a different scenery, and it's been long since I saw fugly Singaporeans in public transports.

Movie wasn't that thrilling, and we arcade with 30bucks. Neoprints to capture my curls, and pastamania was pretty much, normal. Then it started to rain, so we rode back.

At 0430 Squadron called me along the xpressway, apparently, his R6 broke down after skidding. Alhamdulilah, he managed to control, else I guess I'll be elsewhere now. He reached home 0610, after free ride with the tow truck, and bus ride back.

Squadron, you're baby's new, but it's always giving some mechanical problems. Sigh

2009-05-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

Labour Dayy!

Head over to sis's place to visit dear nephew. The boy doesn't look unwell at all. Like as he was playing nurse with the bandages. 5 stitches on the side of his head. Appears to be well and fit.

With guests visiting, laze at sis's place the whole day. Head back home thereafter.

2009-04-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

Today was unexpected. Squadron fetch me from work, then we head to AMK, to pick up letters. Iluma to purchase movie tickets to The House, then dinner to some Indian restaurant in Lil India. I finally have my Palak Paneer. And we had Chicken Dum Briyani. The last time we had Briyani, we both ended up with severe headache due to the sapi animal oil. It sures filled our tummies.

Arcade in Iluma. And Squadron won B&J mini for just a dollar!

Such happy gamer. Movie was creepy. To think there are really people living that way.

Receive text from Daddy, four hours back.
"Kita kat eshore hospital adek jatoh call dulu kalau nak datang k"

My heart jumped and I check I've got 5miss call for all I didn't realise.

But when I called back Daddy, Danish seems to be ok. He's back at home with stitches.

So we rode home happilly. Hahaha

2009-04-19T18:00:00.000-07:00

Been soo away from writing down my live-book, I missed out couple of great events/experience I had. Just to say, I've been busy.

Work's getting me all stressed up, plus with life stats. But since I'm waiting and hoping for Squadron to end work and bring me out, I decided to look for some ideas.

My anny's just around a month away. And unlike usual, I'm still undecided on the celebration. Squadron wants it simple. But I figured, tho anny's just a celebration, and a mark to how many years together, I still want to make it somehow, special. Some people may say "Why count the number of years together, it seems like you're counting how long you've managed to sustain life with the other one". Lol. Well, different minds, think differently. But I love to lead a luxurious life once a while, head to fancy restaurants for dinner, wear dinner dresses, reserve a hotel for weekend getaway. Walk like you're in life of riches. Not to showcase your wealth, but rather reward yourself for your achivements, no matter how small. "A happy life is a continuous of small treats."

But then again, I'm still thinking of the anny part. I've not even started for the planning, I'm stressing on another occassion - Squadron's birthday. It's somewhere in Aug, and I have months to prepare, but I'm looking forward more to his birthday, as I know it's the most special day for him, as he never fails to take AL on the 27th. For a man like him, he deserve so much treatment, and I can take the advantage to show my appreciation to him. For the moment, the perfect birthday gift for him is a full-faced Arai. I know how much he's been wanting it. He's been planning for a road trip up to KL on his R6. But given that he only has one full-face, he decides to forgo the plan as he wants to take me there as well.

I'm still indecisive, but I know what I want to do for now.

Off to meet my ooldd mhann!

2009-03-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

We were behind schedule for 3hours.

EC 21st March Bash

The delivery came early, Squadron and I had to stay behind, to decorate the pit. While Farhan went to fetch the rest of the EC. The plan somehow was ruined, with Hasli knowing our plans for the bash, which he shouldn't. Apparently, he intrude Ina's lappie, and got hold of all the plans. Still, they went to GSwing, after some drama. I didn't get to follow, so me and Squadron stayed, and started to BBQ.

The bikini bods melted its way, but the taste was sinful. The pinata sure was unexpected.

Azmi & Siti sent back three, then while later, we packed and sent Nurul back home. We decide to catch movie @ Cathay.

Head home, with Squadron sending us one by one. And unfortunately, Squadron's misjudge, and the van scratch against the wall. I wonder how much that'll cost us. Cab ride back home.

2009-03-24T20:11:00.000-07:00

Been looking high and low, near and far, for someone who personalise badges. And finally, after such heavy research and case study, I've found such a nice lady, who creates for me those badges for party on the 28th. And the designs she proposed were such beauty!

The theme of the party it's Childish Adultery. Hehehe

2009-03-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

It always happens. I'm like fated to be stucked at Pract 3.

Booked for lesson today @ 1010. I'm suppose to give a wake up call to Squadron at 0800, and myself to get ready. But somehow, I overslept, and Squadron called me at 0920, and told me to get dressed.

It took me just 20mins, and I waited for Squadron to arrive at my place. But at 1005, I gave him a ring. He didn't answer, so my thot was that he was on his way.

Moments later, Squadron rang.

"Oops I did it again."
"Where are you?"
"I'm downstairs lah"
"At my void?? Huh?!"

Apparently, he was at my void since he called, and I could have made it if I were to just head down when I was dressed up at 0940.

So plan's cancelled. Head to Bukit Panjang to continue his letters. Brunch at Mac's BPP. For the next 2hrs we head around and around.

To Clementi SSC for change, then all the wat to Bugis Junction. Bought stuffs for the party on the 28th. Settled with a mermaid pinata since the cake suits the theme. Party poppers and balloons, I still have to deco the pinata bat and fill the pinata.

To PS, for Mall Cop, which was hilarious. Then we head back early. Hehehe

2009-03-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

Saturday was crazy. From work, I rushed to meet Fiz @ Tamp to head to Nurul's 21st bash. Together along with EC, just Farhan missing, we celebrated her 21st bdae. That girl has turn 21, when I'm only 20years and 3months and 5 days old. Hahaha

Her cake was so adorable, and she settled for a theme which looks like a kindergarten school with butterflies. I think the bratz image or barbie castle would be adorable too. My girly woman friend.

Rushed to Gombak, with half deciding to head to to meet Squadron all the way there. Fetched me from Gombak, and accompained him send letters at Bukit Batok.

Head to JP, for NTUC Xtra, and the new JP has soo many greeeeaat shops! Hehehe we bought 30cans of coke, just to get us a huge glassmade coke bottle which has a spanish straw hat to it. Detour his place to put some load off his X1, sped back home.

2009-03-20T17:56:00.000-07:00

Lil Miss Screwup.

No runs for the past three days.

No wonder it's been so stagnant.

2009-03-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

Online ordered Pizza Hut for tonight's unplanned planned party. Rushed to Hanis @ Eastpoint. Was rushed for time to look for sis's fav cheesecake. I settled with Chocolate Truffle after being tempted with Chocolate Souffle.

Banner to the list, rushed home. Pasted just a simple bdae banner, as a lil decoration to set the bdae mood.

Squadron came over, and we waited patiently.

Sis's arrival, had the mini party and feasted with simple dishes my mom managed at the last hour. Lil bit of movies, before us called it a night.

Finally we had the bdae party. After it being postponed for four times. Hehehehe

2009-03-16T08:54:00.000-07:00

I'm one upset runner.

SUNDOWN MARATHON

REGISTRATION IS CLOSED.

I have been looking forward to run the 10km Women's Category, and now, it's closed.

Since the last Ultra 84km Sundown, I have been inspired to join, but now it's CLOSED.

Whyy?? Whyy...??????

2009-03-15T23:59:00.000-07:00

From home, Squadron fetched me to SubUrban. The run it's today. Just a mere 5km, but it felt like I was running for 42km, or even an 84km.

All geared up, with no breakfast we started running together with hundred over runners along Sengkang East Drive and Punggol. It's been long since I jogged in the day. I prefer night training, the wind, atmosphere is much clam and soothing. It was a rough start, as I didn't have my iPod as my companion. But Squadron was there, so it compensate. A full 5km, non-stop running within 45:30. A lil slow, but I'm proud of my latest personal achivement. I'm progressing back to my fitness state (= I miss those times, where chasing each other was Squadron's and my favourite game.

Joined in the fair, tried archery. Had chicken wings, then we head to Bedok Sports Complex for a fresh bath and change. To Siglap for a moment, then back to City Plaza for a foot massage.

Such painful experience, but a worthy gain. Hehehe and the lady sure knows my physical complications. The permanent damage from Judo.

It was my first, and great experience. Even Squadron couldn't stand the pain.

Head to Kallang for some rest. Speed up to PS, shopped a lil, got my very own dumbells.

Watched Coming Soon. Pretty freaky, but the story does not exactly was scary. A coincidentally, the cinema they showcast was cinema 3, the same cinema I was sitted in. Hehehe

Headed back, full shag. But still, we're glad we completed the run. More training, time to get it serious. Squadron will permit me for 21km, if he sees more progress (=

2009-03-14T22:17:00.000-07:00

Finally decide to clear few things off my wardrobe. But when I do, I find it hard to throw the pieces off my wardrobe. Bcause the things that I keep, are things that has a memo attached to it. Else, it wouldn't have be in my wardrobe in the first place.

And I still have the black bass. I feel like throwing it away, smash it up, but then the poor bass has nothing to do with anything that took place. Such a good piece of music artefact.

Urgh, anyway, I really plan to get that corner wardrobe. Revamp the whole room once again. Make more space for workout and personal space. Since I can count the number of times I use the PC, I think I'll make less, but comfortable space for it.

But then anyway, I'll sleep lil early, I'm super nervous for tomorrow's run. I don't know whyy.

2009-03-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Is in town already! Hehehe I was physically at work, my mind was else where. Squadron fetched me from work, after I changed we head to downtown east, after detour to Esso. While waiting for the band, the intro band was local scene. Pretty good, but we were left clueless. Hahaha

I shall rate the performance excellent, but the crowd, was a bore. The youths there were too cool to jump around I guess. Hahaha

We head to N2, supposedly for dinner, which we ended up having such heated conversation.

No doubt, I've change. But I myself, am not sure of why the change too place drastically, and effectively.

2009-03-08T21:50:00.000-07:00

Today my instincts were not good.

Met Squadron in the evening. Had the SubUrban race pack for collection @ CP. We head to Giant on detour, thinking to get myself another FBT slacks, until we saw the crowd, and the queue, we decide to forgo the plan. While we were shopping in 7-eleven, Squadron receieved a call from his boss. It's a SUNDAY! And Squadron was required to report back to work. Some pipeline burst out, and the office was flooded. Hehehe, so no wonder I felt something was amiss today. Hehehe

We rode to CP, collected our race packs, then had dinner/lunch with YTF. The forever favourite food. Hehehe shopped around, then Squadron sent me back. He just had to head back to office at 2100 on a Sunday. Sigh.

2009-03-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

Squadron had his task to finish, I was on duty today. Rushed back home, since he request to meet at 1400. But unfortunately, it rained like crazy. Mad dogs! I was already full dressed, and he was just lazing at home, waiting for the rain to stop.

Sigh, at 1700, he came over, and we reach fid's place at 1800. And she just left to head to Arqam's side. So we had dinner at the reception, sat a moment, and we head to her place, catched a drama. Waited for her till 2100, and she was wearing the indian suit, with Arqam. Hehehe so adorable.

Watched them took couple of pics, then Imran came. Leaving the newly weds at the reception, us four took the road and head to Simpang Bedok for Koke @ Cash Studio. The room is CRAMPY! You can hardly fit three, imagine us four in that room. It looks just like my storeroom. Hahaha it was a good icebreaker, given that it's the first we're meeting Sheera's date, Imran. Hehehe dinner @ Spize. Then we head our seperate ways.

2009-03-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

It's Fid's solemnization today. Since Squadron was unable to make it, I accompanied him to AMK, then he sent me to Fid's place, met Sheera there.

And my dear friend, is super gorgeous. Well, she has been the most beautiful one to me among us three. But I didn't know she loved pink so much. Her room it's pink, her outfit is pink. Her reception deco is even pink! Hahaha

Alhamdulilah, the solemnization went smoothly. And Arqam managed to say his vow once, with full confidence. Hehehe

So me and sheera, we sat at the reception, unsure of what we were waiting for. Till I received a call from Squadron, and he's coming over. So we waited for him, like crazy. We were almost getting bored. Hehehe

Waited for them, till the newly weds were done with photoshoot. So we had dinner together. Walked to Fid's home, then she gave us the most precious, and heartening gift ever.

A CD creation of Broken Closet. Done solely by her, her effort. And we start to reminiscene, of our 4yrs of friendship. The hardship, sadness, happiness and trouble we went through together. Tears were shed, as I know we will miss those times, and we are happy for her, she's found her soulmate, and we shall forever stand strong, BC.

2009-03-02T23:40:00.000-08:00

Bedok for Vybes' shampoo, then Bugis for Squadron. Did a lil round up check on clothes at BHG. Dresses were beauty, but suits to be woren to work. Round about BJ with Squadron, then the street to look for my office pants, and upon destination, the shop is under construction. Sadly, that was the only shop my ass agreed to fit into, and the shop just had, to close down.

Walked to the nearest party shops, and I found such a dream pinata. Pinata 21. Nyehahah but I think I shall get them a simple pinata, and prank with mess.

Planned to head back for dinner @ Tamp. But along ECP, my head started pumping too hard, which took us 15mins at the shoulder. So we head back instead for dinner.

2009-03-01T22:26:00.000-08:00

Morning Sunday, head to Siti's, after meeting Ina @ Tamp Central. Discussed about the upcoming March Bdae/Bbq plans for the March babies. Since we're turning 21 this year, we decide to make a lil party between us 6.
So we came up with:

1. BBQ @ ECP
2. GSwing @ Clarke Quay
3. Bikini Cake

Which I'm eargerly waiting for the day, and buy the items need one by one. I plan to surprise with a pinata, well, I shall see how it goes with the budget. EC's very first major party (=

Sunday was such frustrating! Well, given the unjudgeable weather, Squadron planned for an active Sunday. Roller blading near the costal. Well, unfortunately, when it rained @ Tamp, he was sleeping. When it stop raining @ Tamp, it rained crazily @ Boon Lay.

At 1700, we he decide to finally leave, he recieved news about his sister's loss. Her sis was expecting second child, and unfortunately, miscarriage at three months. So he head to KKH with his mom. Which I was suppose to join, but he told me to stay home since it was raining like crazily.

Sigh. I've just did maintenance to my blades today, but under such unfavourable circustances, roller, you stay hanging a lil while longer kay.

2009-02-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

It was raining, raining, and raining. The moment Squadron plans to leave home, it rained. So I decide to wait for him at CS, since we had to head there anyways. He came 30mins later. And we bought ourselves tickets to RJA! Yay! For missing All American Rejects yesterday, Squadron owes me a concert, my kind. Pretty much excited, since Squadron and me have agreed to try out our uncommon likings.

We bought chocos, and four pair of shoes for me from Cotton On. I plan to get all colors if I can find storage. Hehehe

We planned to head to Cathay for late night movie. But along the road pass ITE Simei, there was a trailer which toppled upon left turn. So we had to detour our route, and it rained again. Nyehaha, so we sat at the bus stop for an hr, only then we decide to go under the rain to catch movie at TM.

Dinner at Mac's, movies with Marley & Me. Movie's pretty loveable. But one thing's for sure, caucasians care better for animals than asian do. Head back thereafter (=

2009-02-27T23:59:00.000-08:00

All American Rejects' today, so being a nice lover, Squadron agreed to bring me to carpark@Zouk to witness the band. Since I end late, had dinner with Jun and Naz, afterwhich me and Naz walked from Bugis to Suntec, since I was rushing for time, didnt exactly walked around CityHall.

Train ride to Tiong Bahru, I reached at 2200. Show starts that timing, and Squadron was still no where to be found. At 2225, he finally reached, we broommmed our way to Zouk. Sadness, the moment we reached, people started leaving. So we left as well. And I just couldnt stop screaming while @ AYE till Tong Yi. Hehehe blame Squadron for being late! Dinner at Tong Yi, then we head to Mustafa.

And we were looking for Squadron's shampoo. But when we were at the section, we came across, Nizam's elder. And then when I turned again, I saw Nizam. Nyehaha, both me and Squadron lost concentration. I dont know why he panic, but he panic with me. Nyehaha.

Still I managed to get heels for just $7, which is surprisingly cheap and nice to think it comes from Mustafa centre.

A calorie skipping rope, that counts your calorie on weight by skip/speed. Find it such fascinatin. Hehehe well, just wondering if it's accurate, but given that Squadron, the ultermost fit old man (5years ago he really was), he said it's quite good.

With VS Body mist and few others bought, we rode back home. After, we were trapped on a road block. Nyehahaha

2009-02-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

s I was soundly asleep since 2300, until I got woken up at 0100, due to terrible stomach pain.

Woahh, just like that one time when I was out late with Squadron, I had such terrible stomach pain out of a sudden, he gave me coke to release the gas, but it got worst.

Goodness Squadron was still awake that point of time. Stomach + back pain. Almost went to the hospi, but I resisted, and I know all they'll give me is pain killer and more injections.

After acidic throwup, I lay on my side and I the pain suddenly stopped, at 0230, after Squadron's last check on me, I feel asleep.

Woah, one trouble sleep. I don't want my gastrics to come back again.

2009-02-25T18:58:00.000-08:00

Influx of emails flooded the support's mailbox.

But I came across such one cute reply from the user. After he request a reset for ID, I revert with a reply informing that his ID has been resetted. And he replied me, which was one email of 100over I did today, that made me smile. Hehehe

"Fredrikus R Weking" (xxx@dbs.com)02/25/2009 06:28 PM To (xxx/IBM@IBMSG) cc

Subject RE: (#1095674)User ID (PTBBCES) is already signed on at MERVA system (URGENT)

Terimakasih, Shakilah.

Rgds,Freddy

Hehehe I wish all users were like that. Hehehe

2009-02-24T22:30:00.000-08:00

Met Sheera after work today. She wanted to pass me the money for Fid's Hen dinner previously. So we met @ Tamp MRT.

Out of random,

Shark, where do you want to eat?
I dont know, you decide.
Hmm, Simei?
What for?
Hehehe, you know, come come lets go!

And so we train ride to Simei. And her purpose, to bring me eat @ 18Chefs. Well, we by pass the restaurant, but I dont have th urge to go there. Like cold sweat. And I dont know why she was having such cold sweat too.

After numerous turn around in EastPoint, we stepped to 18Chefs for dinner. Looking at the menu, pasted on the table. Then one runner came towards us from the entrance.

Yes, can I take your order?

He looked at Sheera, me and then Sheera. Then he said,

"I'll be back."

He went to the counter, he walked out.

And surprise, my long lost forgotten history of past 2 years, Nizam. Well, out of such feeling of confusion, I told Sheera, we should simply walk out. And we did.

We dinner with desserts nearby, aftershock of meetup. We sat and talked of all the possible cause of his reactions.
Talked about our ex boyfriends, and boyfriends. And silly love things.

And I decide to deposit cash, which is just beside 18Chefs.
And with Sheera's such curious mind, she wanted to just ask for Nizam and get him to talk to me.
Well, thanks to her, he came out after we bypass the shop. He called for me, and we had a talk.
But then, I know, it's weird talking to someone who you've last heard two years back.

One thing's for sure, I know I didn't regret the decision I made two years ago, and I know, that I can never fall in back with you. You said you're going thru depression, did you even know the sufferings I faced along all with you, and did you know that I was under depression, caused loss of unhealthy weight, emotional and mental stress?

Well, I know now, and I shall demolish the bass soon.

2009-02-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

After we packed, we head to Squadron's place for change of clothing. Watched his mom cleared antique place off the cupboard which reminded me of what my grans love to do.

Back my place, my dad told me I didn't have to be present at today's gathering, so Squadron brought me out. To marina. Popeye's on the lunch list @ Flyer.

But while on our foot walk to Flyer, there was still OCBC the lap race going around the F1 track. Fascinating view, we stood there for 40mins to just watch the cyclist going rounds. Looking at their speed and endurance to go around the wet terrain with sand, such a beauty.

I can't wait to get one for my own, then me and Squadron shall cycle the whole of SG weekly. Nyehahah, after I fully recover that is.

After Popeye's to Esplanade. Catched the local scene and the new band Firefight. Pretty awesome view, and esplanade made some sure changes.

Marina for movie's, He's Just Not That Into You. Which was hilarious, and pretty true. One note: Don't look for love, let love find you. Mysterious visits and surprises lighten you.

Home back.

2009-02-21T23:59:00.000-08:00

It's a lil bit like cat and mouse with rain today. While on my way to AMK, Squadron decides to meet me at Tamp instead since I'm only 1/3 of the journey.

After we head around the central, we rode to Outram , in the plan to do good deed of blood donation, since my last rejection. While on PIE, the rain starts pouring. And so we decide to stop on shoulder, till the rain stopped, we continued our journey.

Just before the exit to CTE, it just rain again. Hah, since it was too heavy, we stopped on shoulder again. It was like we were chasing for rain. And when the clouds were brighter, we decide to head on with the journey.

Up toward CTE, before the first tunnel, it rained crazily. Hah, but this time, we decide to head further up. until after two tunnels, which resulted in drenched shirt and skirt, we decide to stop on shoulder right before the exit to Outram.

Wooah, I was just an arms length away from fast moving vehicles. Only after we decide for Squadron to wear the poncho, which covers only him.

Upon the destination, we found that BB was too packed to even imagine, soo we forgo the plan and waited for the rain to shimmer down.

To petrol kiosk, it rained crazily, which stopped moments later. The moment we head out, it rained again. Pit at the bus stop, Squadron wore the poncho, and rode to BIY @ Bukit Timah.
And amazingly, I was fascinated! It looks like the authentic british shop house and the moment i made entrance, my desire to just bake was overwhelming. Cake deco, fondant and edible markers. So now, I can start thinking of the cake deco.

Head over to my place, but detour along the way to Bedok Resrv, but couldn't find the baby fan. We rode to N2, bought the baby fan, and few others, then Squadron waited patiently for me under my deck.

Pack my stuffs and we head to ECP. The OCBC Cycle was such a nicee race. For the first time, I see a real life bicycle race, sirens going off by escorts, and racers going as fast as 40km/h. That's like gear 2 in motorbike. Then I know, that every racer, has their own unique bike, accordingly to size, height and stamina.

Had dinner in styrofoam, and we gazed at the racers all night. Hah I was fascinated.

2009-02-18T21:05:00.000-08:00

March is one of the months where I will be stressed up. No, not because it's the period where you pay for yearly bills like in Jan, but simply, I have too many birthdays to plan for.

In addition, this year the EC turns 21, and we have 3 EC march babies, me, Siti and Farhan will be soo freaking stress to think of the gifts and the celebration. Bdae planners usually will be with my side kick Has and Nurul, but then it's their bdae, so I'm down to myself and Siti.

Hah, well, let's just see what I'll manage in the end. Haiiiya, stresss!! And my sis's bdae is coming as well.

2009-02-16T21:34:00.000-08:00

Well, such a pleasant surprise. Squadron did not have any letters today! So after donuts with Naz and Jun, Squadron fetched me from Expo. And while riding, he asked me such a pleasant question, I have been wanting to hear.

"Mama, nak goo sushi?"
"Huh?"
"Skali je tanye. Nak go sushi? If next time, it's burn!"
"Ehh NAAAAKKKK!!!!!!"

Hehehe even with the helmet and road noise, he said I caused partial impairement to his right ear. Hahaha

And soo we filled petrol, and head to Downtown. Wahh, the moment I stepped in, I can feel such contentment.

The sushi were calling me, my name. And I ooorder Kakiage, fried veg in tempura with sweet sauce. And it was simply, hheeaaavveeennn... Ahhh..

With esprit Raspberry and Squadron's greentea, we had such a wiiide spread of sushi, confirm to fill me and to make my month till March. So March go again kay. Heehehehe

2009-02-15T23:59:00.000-08:00

Well today is the day that I have been waiting for the past two weeks. Whhy? Today it's adventures day!

Well, one thing because I've planned a surprise for Squadron. Except that I don't possess a licence yet, I can't bring him there, so he has to bring us there.

Fetched me from home, went to Century to pickup the pre ordered a cake from Eatzi. Pretty mini cupcakes with letters made to 'My Love' and a specialised message for Squadron. Of course, I can make it myself, but since I always hand make, I decide to buy! Hehehe Squadron got overexcited with the rose, I wonder why.

With brunch at MCD with DCB, we rode our journey to Brizay Park @ Old Holland Road. Got lost among the bungalows, but we found our way thru.

The moment we saw the field Squadron was half shouting.

"Ehh mama, is this my surprise???"
"Ehh mama best nyeer!!"

Hehehe well, he saw the Zovb ball and guns, he must have already guessed.

We started off with the Laser Clay Shooting.

Laser Clay, not combat shooting. Hehehe Laser Clay is where you shot the clay which will be thrown in air.

Together with another malay couple, we shot over 20clays in total. The gun, is uber heavy. I bet I'll get muscle strain tomorrow! Hehehe nevertheless, I won Squadron by 24 full points (= For 5times, I was the first shooter! Hehehe how awesome is that? Hehehe so Squadron, dinner treat kayy. Hehehe

From the shooting, to the roll down of the Zovb. Looks can be very deceiving. How can a ball like that, get the fun out of you?

Well, try having lunch before that, and you'll 100% be nausea. Hehehe the fast roll down from the slope, I think it went around 70km/h, maybe lah, bouncing ball with two stomach-fulled human in the ball caught us crazy. Hehehe in addition to that, after the roll down, we had to crawl up the slope just like hamsters. I think I rolled in the ball couple of times because the ball was rolling too fast. Hehehe really felt like a hamster, and you have to be super fit to complete the task. Hehehe must sync with your partner, else like me, you roll in the ball when you should be crawling. Hehehe

Such wonderful adventure. Hehehe, too tired to comment. Looking at Squadron's face. For the first time, I saw him being so afraid when the ball was bouncing with us in, and his shagged face. Hehehe

From there, we rode to Clementi to freshen up. At Clementi sports hall, we saw a very mini rock climbing wall. Hhehe, the strength is definately, nothing compared to the real 10stories high wall of course. Hehehe but still, we climbed the wall. Hehehe

Freshen up, and head around. Nothing much at the area, but there's Ramen and Sushi. Hehehe from there, to Parkway, as we decide to buy a groundsheet and sugar for me to bring to work, so I can have hot tea every morning! Hehehe

And we head to ECP, as planned. Only we have night picnic, where people have picnic in the morning. Hehehe with durian, evian and chips as our picnic food. And my dearest cupcakes were damaged due to the speed and wind that R6 of Squadron caused. Damn you bike.

We ended up not sleeping, and talking. The sea breeze was such perfect.

Rounding at Kallang, before Squadron decides to send me back home. Heheheh and when I reached home, I realised I've forgotten to pass him the card I got for him. Hoow silly. Still, he looked soo happy (=

Glad you enjoyed the whole day. You deserve more, after soo much hardwork you've placed in, and the load you've always had to weigh. We shall still try the other activities. Thank Thomas from AdvenTours too (=

2009-02-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

Finally on weekend shift after three months working here. Saturday, was alright. But I miss weekends in EBD. Just simply, cabot! Would head out for breakfast with Squadron for couple of hours, shop and still have time to roam around. Squadron will join me in the office, play LAN gaming and movie marathon. Hahaha awesome. I'll be sleeping for 12hrs, with zero calls, no email, no nothing. And the whole office to myself. I wish to have that project back again, but I know, I had the best colleagues and boss around.
But nevertheless, still pretty alright here.

From work, to Bugis with Naz and Jun. After Jun left for dikir, me and Naz indulge in sushi. Well, it's cold storage sushi, sooo I still want Hei Sushi.

Headed to Clementi to meet Squadron. Since he is suddenly available, so we decide to head back his place, changed and rode R6 instead. Head to Orchard. Was walking along Orchard road, and there were even flowers and balloons on sale by the streetwalk. It's kinda over-rated. Hehehe walked around Lucky Plaza. And Squadron has the first try on the phillipine's famous milk-like delicacy.

"Ehh papa! This is a must try, really! How many to buy?"
"Err, just buy 1, papa share with mama kay"
"Kay I buy three, kay you try abit."

And when he tried abit, the whole delicacy became his. Well, he didn't even share the first one.

Circus Arcade, and we were addicted to the ultermost boring game there. Not really boring tho, and we got ourselves plenty of token. Will save the token and collect till we find a gift worth to exchange for.

Walked around the mall, and I got myself a red half top and a classic top.

I'm still looking for the dress in vain, but it's either too long, or too rowdy. Hahaha

Dinner over at Ojolali. Looks can be very deceiving. And woooah, it's not a regret for you to stay at Lucky Plaza, and wait for seats to eat at Ojolali. I had Ayam Panggang Ojolali.

The taste is such heaveennn, eat it with both of the two chilli and it keeps your burning for more! To sooth down, the Soda Siok is such a good match. It's bandung with soda. Nice weird combi. Hehehe

From orchard to ECP, our usual nice spot, this time under the trees. Planned to head home at 0200, but we slept too peacefully and at 0600, I was woken up. Hahaha both of us start to panic, and started to think of excuses to make to my mom. Squadron was riding at 130km/hr on normal road, and lucky me, when I reached home, my mom isn't awake yet for dusk prayers. Hehehe

Such a nice cheap thrill. Hahaha

Squadron you are such one understanding and patient soul I've met in my life. I'm sorry to have kept from you for couple of days. Thanks for understanding, how I'm actually feeling, but I tell you honestly, my heart and mind, has never thing of going back to the past. That guy, he just has hurt me soo much. Too much that till now, my heart is still hurting. I'm still thinking where did I went wrong, what did I do, for things to turn out that way.

But overall, you're my present, and my future. Whatever happened, happens for a reason. And I'm glad that reason was U.

2009-02-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

Both soo shag, both soo tempremental. Hehehe rather mental headers. Hahaha well, Squadron dropped by my place after send few letters.

Tho it's passed dinner, we head to Downtown, for DCB. Well, we by pass Hei Sushi, and my cravings for Hei Sushi, has not yet been fulfilled, thanks to Squadron. Everytime I want to eat sushi, he'll go, "Cannot tomorrow training", "Cannot tomorrow working", "See, shop is closed.".

I shall take my revenge, and when I go for sushi, you just see me eat kayy. Hehehe

So we bypass the caricature shop again and again. And everytime we bypass the shop, it's closed. Hahah and then we saww Squadron caricature. Heheheh wahh kenangan silamm ehh. Hahahaa we headed back thereafter.

And we shall get a caricature too lah!

2009-02-13T19:15:00.000-08:00

Now when I think about yesterday, it hurts. Now I think about seeing you last night, it hurts. I picture you as a face with thorns. I dont know, but I'm sorry.

2009-02-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

This whole one week has been such a draggg. With the late shift, it feel like I'm such workaholic. Hahaha Squadron dropped by my place for a visit. Seems that he has plenty of letters to send, but he missed me, so he dropped by.

Had ice cream from 7-11. And the every lazy, but innovative and the NO-PROBLEM attitude, Squadron innovate a new spoon to eat ice cream. Bend the cover to two, and scoop it up. Only that you'll be vacumming the ice cream in. Hahahaha look at his such motivation and creativeness.

Wahaha!

2009-02-12T21:00:00.000-08:00

My sudden urge to get Squadron the card I saw at East Point, and my half hearted plans to head to AMK after long hour work. So I walked around in East Point, gotten myself a sushi.

While I was buying sushi, nana called.

"Kila where are you?"
"At Simei"
"Alah, I want to buy hello card, I only got $20 in my bank. Cant withdraw"
"Hmm"
"Transfer me some money can?"
"OK"

So I diligently walked towards the POSB. And to the POSB, you will have to bypass 18Chefs Restaurant. And when I was walking, I saw an unexpected person, at the most unexpected time. Nizam. Well, I think it was him, coz the hair, the movement, the walk and the side profile fits him perfectly. Well, yes it's been two years since last contact, but I don't forget people that easily.

I almost shouted for his name, but I felt like there was a sudden fur ball. So I just did transfer, and walked back bypass the restaurant. But didn't see him again.

I goot so misdirected later till home.

I've been wanting to return the bass to you Nizam, that's why I contacted you back. No, I've no intention to ruin you doing fine now, but I need to pass you back, what's originally not mine.

2009-02-11T09:46:00.001-08:00

Event Info
Host: Coldplay

Time and Place
Date: Monday, March 23, 2009
Time:7:00pm - 11:00pm
Location:Singapore Indoor Stadium
City/Town:Singapore, Singapore

Description
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Host: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Time and Place
Date:Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Time:8:00pm - 11:00pm
Location:D'Marquee @ Downtown East
City/Town:Singapore, Singapore

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Ouhh yess!! Red Jumpsuit and Coldplay are coming! Coming Coming Commmiinngg!!

2009-02-09T12:00:00.000-08:00

Hi Shakilah,

This is to confirm your booking on 15 Feb, 4pm for 2 adults. You have booked a session consisting of ZOVB & Laser Clay Valentine's Special (One roll-down each in the ZOVB ball, 25 clays each for Laser Clay Shooting, a complimentary & exclusive Valentine's gift pack).

We'll see you at the big field along OLD HOLLAND ROAD. We will be at the junction of Brizay Park. There will be a small canopy tent with a ZOVB banner. It should be pretty easy to locate us. The total cost for your booking will be $99 nett. We have already received your deposit of $50 and hence you can pay the balance of $49 on that day via cash or cheque.

Please not that if you cancel the booking within 48 hrs, there will be a minimum charge of $50 for the labour and logistics catered for that day.

Feel free to contact me for further queries.

See you on 15th…

Regards

Thomas Seguy
advenTOUR Singapore Pte Ltd

Yayness! Can't wait to give the surprise to Squadron this Feb15! He'll be soo elated (=

2009-02-08T13:00:00.000-08:00

Breakfast with Squadron today was crazy. Well, while eating at Mr Teh Tarik last night, we found a shop just opposite which sells beancurd and Yuo Tio. So, us being such big fans of those, pledge to try every beancurd we come across. But unfortunately our journey from Tampines to Yishun, Boon Lay to Tampines to Yishun for Squadron, was a disappointment. The shop closed! Hahaha mayb it's not open on Sunday? But then, urrgghh!!

So we rode back, and randomly pick YTF at CompassP. The soup is so refreshing! And for those Yong Tau Fu lovers like us, I recommend you the one at Banquet Compass Point. Since day one till today, back then was when I was in NYP, the standard has never change, only the price. That's our another makan feast. We have also pledge to try every YTF we come across, so far, none is the best. Have yet to try the one at Kembangan, the shop which sells just YTF.

Anyway, Squadron sent me to Century, while he goes on his journey to work. Walked around, and settled for the half top from BHG.

And I hate China people. One piece of advise, if you come to foreign land to work, please know your roots. Yes, you may be rich, with SG currency as salary to bring home to your mainland, but you are just a foreigner. If you are soo good, why leave your mainland? You should have been such valuable asset to your citizens! You come here, and jeopardise our good reputation, lucky I'm a local that you provided such bad sales assistance. If I was some tourist, I'll go back home, thinking SG has such bad service!

Well, I still got my half top, then I head home.

2009-02-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to be heading to CDC for my pract 3. But somehow, I was super shagged, when Squadron came over to my place, judging by my look and looking at the time, Squadron banned me from pract 3 today. So he head on with his work, while I slack at home a lil.

Packed my stuffs for the run today. Squadron fetched me over again, and we rode to the Zoo. There were couple of participants, and I like to look at athletes in their running gear and their faces while they run.

After our photo shot for our pre-ordered cert, we joined in the run. There were elite runners, runners and fun run. Since we missed the runners category, we joined the fun run. And boy! There was karma. The slopes and terrain at Safari were challenging. And yes I agree Squadron, me not enough training. I was pumping too hard. Hehehe kay lah I'll place higher level of commitment to training kay Squadron.

But I still managed to sprint for the last 1km. Which then, gave me side effects. Hehehe given that my ankle was proned to sprains, the nerve on my feet got entangled so I ended up limping. Thanks to my private PT cum masseuse. I was healing perfectly. Hehehe

Joined in the lucky draw dip with Ash and Nad. Well, the lucky fella won himself a 42inch plasma from Panasonic. Other than the few gifts, many people were crossing their fingers, toes and hoping lady luck to be on their side. Hahaha

To Yishun stadium to get our wash. We head to Yishun Central as Squadron wanted so much for me to try a western stall there. But unfortunately, the stall no longer exist. To Khatib MRT for Cold Storage, got myself a healing patch, and Squadron some durians.

To Mr Teh Tarik along Yishun for Fish & Chips, Spring Chicken and Thai Fried Noodle.

Made our journey to ECP, joined the fishermen fishing. And we fell asleep on the stone table, gazing at the stars, watching the aeroplanes go above us. My favourite way to spend time with Squadron.

2009-02-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

Head back home after work since it was raining at Squadron's area. So decide to change before heading to the northeast. While on the bus to tamp central, Squadron told me to wait for him at the library. So I tour around the area, nothing much, but missing the time when I used to study til late in that library.

And that same library, was the venue where I first met Squadron about two years ago. I remember, he was late, and was wearing red. I thot he looked a lil fatter for real, and he looked old, not so old, but older than me. Hehehe
I'll perfectly remember that he was riding in that Mr Yellow CBR, and he wanted to wear for me the helmet, but I rejected and wore it on my own. Hehehe

But anyway, from there, we head to Commonwealth, since Squadron has to meet his colleague for a moment to pass him work info. Rode to Hougang, with Sheera, completed the remaining touch up for Fid's Mr&Mrs Arqam gift. Well, the result was a great turn out. Feel sooo glad that our random ideas worked.

My 4th success personalised gift (= I think there were more, if you really count it but heck. Hahsha

Head home thereafter since Squadron's working the next day.

2009-02-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

Today was random. Woke up to a text from Nurul.

"Girl, today you free?"
"Yup, ehh I thot you school?"
"Yup but end early lah"
"What time?"
"1130, nak go out?"

So I met her at White Sands, and apparently, the Delifrance there closed. Since she just had sushi, we forgo Hei Sushi, and decide to head to T1 for Delifrance. In our train ride there, we randomly decide to head to Secret Recipe at T3.

Lunch feast there. To me, it was such a disappointment. Had the grilled chicken in BBQ sauce. The BBQ sauce was more of chilli sauce rather than what I was looking for.

Bus ride to Century Sq, bought mug for Kak Zie's bdae dinner tonight. Collected yesterday's forgotten gift, then cab back home.

Changed and with mom, dad, nana and the two Monsters, we head to JE, for seafood. And the moment Danish & Darwisy saw Squadron, they kept clinging to him like he's some puppet. Hehehe I think Darwisy like you alot Squadron.

After a wide spread of seafood,and cake cutting session, we went seperate ways.

With Squadron, we head to M'sia for a while. And finally with the new helmet, we tested out at speed of 160km/hr. My helmet's a haywire. I can loudly hear a buzz when it goes against the speed. Ride back home was freezing.

2009-02-04T22:39:00.000-08:00

Wahhh wednesday wakeup, fuyooo back pain. Confirm plus chopp! Had such difficulty sleeping last night, till Squadron stayed with me on the phone till I dozed off.

To the doc's in the morning. Nothing else, buuut muscle relaxer. Well, wasn't much of help, so I forgo the medication. And I decide to head to POSB Tampines Central. Made cash order for the event I booked as a surprise for Squadron this Feb 15. With mom, and sisters plus Danish, we head to Century Sq, bought couple of gifts for this weekend's bdae bash @ ECP Chalet. While we engaged the staff to gift wrap for us, we had lunch at QiJi.

Since it was nearing 1600, had to rush back to fetch Darwisy from school. Only when we reached home, we remembered about our forgotten gifts @ Kiddy Palace. Hehehe

Sent sis with her two sons back. Chilled at her place a moment, before rushing back to catch MAT on Suria. Squadron's beloved Abg Khalid was casted on TV, as he was part of a team that organises expedition overseas.

No run today, back pain comes again. Hate it lah.

2009-02-03T23:59:00.000-08:00

Soo I was pretty elated with Prodigy. Hehehe from work, rush back, changed and then we road to Fort Canning. Dol, Lin and Nick plus us two. Was not much feeling the excitement, till the Dj starts blasting music. We waited for 90mins for their arrival.

And upon their arrival, wooah, the songs were AWESOME! Off the seven songs they played within 60mins, I only remember one, 'Outerspace'. Lotsa jumping, a lil moshing, and head banging.

I think I jumped 20% higher than I usually can on my own, thanks to Squadron.
Awesome workout, and I regretted wearing jeans. Should stick to 3/4 and shirt, would be much greater outfit.

Hearing them 'live' was much better than the CD. I dozed of listening from that compact disc. Hehehe

Dinner with Dol at Mac's Bras Basah, before we pump in petrol and head back. And now I think I can sense my back is aching! Urrgghh!

2009-02-02T22:44:00.000-08:00

Went for my routined jogging today, with the new Nike Sport Flight. I aint no fan of Nike, still, the earpiece was awesome.

It's lightweight, but advise to wear it over the ear as it may drop when you run in speed. Attached to my iPod, clip to my running shorts, and I was set to go. Hehehe

I guess I must plan new route already. I'm getting lovehate feeling with the usual Bedok Reservoir route / round the school/ neighbourhood park. And the best route was with Squadron, where we jogged at a deserted place, and ended up sprinting like heelll coz we had unwelcome company. Hehehe

Feel like hiring a PT. But the most trustworthy souls to be my PT would be Squadron, Dol and Amly.

Hmm.. Hehehe wait lah I become a great runner. Hehehe

2009-02-01T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to donate blood today, since I got rejected last year due to my iron level. Donate blood then head to Suntec for Adidas boutique, YTF at Compass and then picnic at ECP. Butt then, Squadron woke up late. Sigh.

When i rang house his mom told me "Hisham kan, dia kalau Shakilah tak kejut, dia tak bangun nyer. Nanti Cik kejut dia."

Hehehe well, he finally woke up, so we changed plan. To IMM Adidas since that store is the only store which has items to 30% off. Found out from Sarah, the friendly staff that the items are actually clearing for stock. So, sizes, stocks are limited.

After Daiso for a visit, Giant for ice cream and sushi, we headed out. Well, time spent were good. And I still want Hei Sushi kay Squadron. Nothing beats the utermost yummiest halal sushi ever! Wahahaha

2009-01-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

Sheera and me decides to meetup and continue with the wedding gift for Fid. So we met at Bugis, head to Art Friend again. Was expecting something for scrapbook making, but they didn't have lots of the choice for it. Only have a sticky back felt in A4, and if we were to design and cut ourselves, it'll be time consuming.

To PS, Made of Love, and we settled with the checkered felt vinyl. Roses from Spotlight for addition. Bus ride to Leisure Park, Coffee Bean's again with Hot Chocolate to start our process and our project.

Changed our initial plan for the layout, as after we sticked the vinyl, the estimated space area is much smaller. From the roses, to the Wedding tag, quotes and the pictures, i think we took a whole 3hrs for it. Hehehe simplicity, but complex.

Well, Squadron dropped by with the pictures I request help from him to print it out for me. Communication error, and he printed out just half of the amount of pictures. And he went back home, printed out the remaining pieces and head back to Leisure park in less than an hour. Wahh, this man of mine is super sweet (= But I'm sorry, for the mixup (=

Since it was too late to catch Chingay, we decided to head to ECP, for the breeze and the comfort of the sea to place our body and mind to rest. Hehehe

2009-01-30T23:59:00.000-08:00

Took the early shift, and Squadron picked me up from work today. Had couple of things that I have to do this weekend, don't know if I'm capable of completing it all.

From Expo, headed back my place. Changed and we rushed to Bras Basah to head to Art Friend. Well, we did managed to get in on time, but apparently, we were only in the shop for 20mins before it closes for the day. Soo screwed lah, I don't want to have to return to the shop again tomorrow.

So from there, we rode to PS. From Made of Love to Spotlight, searched for the felt vinyl, to no vail. Found the checkered felt, but am thinking, if it suits the wedding theme we were having in mind. After searching in vain, we had late dinner. To The Cathay, bought three earphones and Prodigy cd from Gramaphone. Prodigy concert is just up next week, and the only song I've heard was "Outerspace". I've no clue of their existance till Squadron told me that he's bringing me to Prodigy, I'm like, "What prodigy? Child Prodigy?" Hehehe but since Squadron has been pestering, so I decide to know more about the band.

Watched Love Matters. After cam-whoring at the multi-story carpark at PS, we then decided to stop the show and head home. Hehehe

2009-01-29T23:59:00.000-08:00

With Squadron who fetched me after work today, after heading home to change, we rushed over to Bab Alwi. When we reach, mahgrib prayers already started. Nevertheless managed to catch up and join till end, Alhmadulilah. It's been quite long since I last stepped to the mosque.

Ride to ECP, for a short warming up run of just 20mins. Was just a run to keep the body warmed up. Headed home, with me, being the rider. Hehehe

2009-01-28T23:16:00.000-08:00

An unplanned IKEA @ Tamp trip with Naz and Jun. Their very first visit, my very first visit for '09. Hehehe

Well, saw the corner cupboard yet again. And I'm so in love with it. Just waiting for the day that I get to revamp my room yet again. Hehehe

Our dinner was at the Foodcourt with Nasi Padang, which reminded us of school camps whereby the food pick you instead of vice-versa.

With kid's unhealthy meal to go along with it.

Continued shopping for frames, then I headed back in a cab, after Naz and Jun took the bus back to Bedok.

2009-01-28T10:00:00.000-08:00

Hi, I'm Shakilah. 21 this year, youngest of three daughters. I'm a diploma grad in IT, and I've been working fulltime for the past 8mths. I work as an IT Support, in an IT firm. I have a love hate situation with my job you see. Love cause I do want to persue in IT, and I've got couple of good people, hate cause I never wanted to work fulltime really. I rather work something which involve less with customers or rather my dream is to continue my education.

Well, that's the whole point. If someone asks me, to describe myself, that's much I have to say. No, not that I'm not a good describer, but rather that's how shallow my life is at the moment.

And the whole point is, I want to further up studies bad. I have much interest to gain knowledge, and I truly believe in lifelong learning. I'm rather a student adult than a working adult.

But after my application has been rejected by couple of local uni, kinda got myself in daze. Like I didn't want to further up, as I know my parents wouldn't be able to afford to send me abroad. It'll be like me stealing gold from a pauper. Not that my family is poor, but I can't bear to see my parents still working their ass off to bring me bright future. They've reached age, and my nephews need them, so much rather, I sacrifise.

Till I found an alternative university after much help from Squadron, and his constant motivation and support for me to further up studies, hence, my decision to swap project when EDB project closes. And my application to a uni was accepted. But somehow, I'm still here, working. Because things just suddenly changed, and my heart suddenly grew fonder for Squadron. Then I think back, if I were to study, he'll have to wait for 3-5years more for me. Given that he's 33, 34 to be exact this year, he'll be 40 when we finally settled.

No, not that I'm choosing to settle down by force, but everything that happens, is by choice and decision. Hence, I'm rather quite confused. I know he doesn't mind me furthering up studies, he supports me of my decisions. But I rather not be studying than be heartless.

Why? Because I know what I want. And who I'm looking for. And the person I'm looking is presently here. And I thank Allah for that, but I'm thinking, why now? No, not that I don't appreciate, but it'll be unfair to either one of us. One of us has to make a sacrifise.

I'm willing to bring forward my dreams to couple of years more, but I can't handle it emotionally. What should I do?

2009-01-27T23:59:00.000-08:00

Squadron was down with vomitting since last night. So I pestered him to head to the docs. Squadron fetched me after I trainride to Clementi. Apparently, there was a miscommunication. Squadron, don't have to worry whether it'll be a long/short easy/troubled journey to get from the East to the West. I know that you wanna make things easier for me, but Squadron, not to worry kay. Thanks btw (=

Clementi to Bukit Gombak Shenton Medical. Squadron was certified food poisioned. Hehehe after dinner at the nearby coffeeshop, we then rode to West Mall. It think it's my 3rd time there. But my first with movies. After Squadron got his Liverpool shirt, we catched Wedding Game. The movie was alright, but wasn't such of Wedding of The Year. But anyways, I've watched it, and I prefer Love Matters (=

Ride back home. Squadron isn't working this whole week! Damn!

2009-01-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

PS was a ghost town today, perhaps the whole Singapore was ghost town today. To our disappointment, Spotlight and Made of Love was closed today till I think tomorrow. So we didn't get stuffs for our crafts.

Lunch at BK, with erm fattening foods. Hehehe it's weekday, I'm suppose to be in my jogging shoes and maintening my intake, but heck! It's PH! hehehe

Bus ride to Kallang Leisure park. We figured, since we didn't have the items needed, we just did some plain painting and planning at Coffee Bean.

Which we catched Love Matters. The movie is super hilarious, shall say, didn't regret much on spending for the movie.

Bus ride back, and time flies fast. Wished Fid was with us, but apparently, we were making her gift, soooo neahh!

So when I was walking back home nearing my deck. Saw a guy sitted with his back on me. And so my excitement caused me running, and I saw such a familiar bike nicely parked at the lot.

An R6. And who's R6 was that? Squadron's!! Apparently, he came back last night, and he totally didn't tell me! No wonder when I called you several times, the reception was of SG's! Darn you! Such a pleasant surprise, cause I was dragging my feet back when he told me he'll be back later day tomorrow. Hehehe

Planned to head to ECP for the breeze, but on the journey there, Squadron kinda fell sick, after being seasick last night. Hehehe so we UTurned back. Accompanied Squadron before heading back sleep.

It was a pleasure surprise (= Missed you soo much!

2009-01-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

Decided not to follow mom&dad overseas, nor cousins to Batam.So then rang Sheera up, planned with her to head to PS to get the materials to make for Fid her wedding card gift. Was fully dressed up, just about to fetch my bag and leave, when Sheera called me.

"Shark, sorry, I really don't feel like leaving home today. You da all dressed up?"
"Yup, nevermind it's okay, we can make it tomorrow or next 2 Sundays aite."
"Sure? Really soo sorry.."

Fascinatingly, I wasn't even angry. Well, I understand that wanna-go-out-not-wanna-go-out mood. Well, if that makes sense.

Soo I head to Vivo to meet Naz & Jun. Was there I think an hr early. Found newly fascinating shops like the National Geography. If only I have my own house now, I would have gotten the antiques and vases from there. Not to mention the candles and photography. Was tempted to buy the top there, then I thot, nahh, I have to get my running attire for the upcoming marathons this year. sigh.

So I walked to Adidas boutique, only to find it as a disappointment. Didn't have much attire for ladies running, and I couldn't find a decent top to wear, so then I thot, maybe I should head to IMM again. But of course, wasn't today. So I went in F21, got myself two decent tops (= And I finally found a nice checkered top to go along with Squadron's checkered top. Hehehe if Squadron knows I've been shopping without him, he'll sure say "Wahh, enjoy ehh shopping." Hehehe what, the top was nice, and when I look nice, I look nice for you mahh!!

The plan was to head to Sentosa, luge and ice cream. Wee had lunch at KFC.

Then we walked around, then we went into PageOne, and I got canvas board and a wedding chipboard for Fid's wedding gift. B&J's for ice cream, and we ate I think too much ice cream. Hehehe

So then Naz felt like tea, so we head to GJ for tea.

Wooah, it's my first drinking tea in coffeehouse. Usually I take coffee, but given that I just had ice cream, and the chance of heading to the ladies for long is extremly high, I settled for Camomile.

So after we settled for tea, we went to Cold Storage, then to Giant and we got quite a load of groceries. Well not me, Naz.

Sadly time flies, and we headed back, after having the extreme pleasure with seaweed. Hahaha

Tried calling Squadron and yet again, you are unreachable. Arghh, miss you lahh!

2009-01-24T23:59:00.000-08:00

Nephews were over my place early Saturday morning. Well, if there weren't over today, I think I would have woken up late.

Given that Squadron has boarded ferry over to Tanjong Pinang, soo I'm like all to myself this weekend. Sigh, sadly for four long days.. I'm sooo going to miss youuu!!

So texted Naz, and she invited me over to her friend's 21st bdae chalet. Surprisingly, there were couple of people that I know were there. Back to school days. Hehehe

So we taxi ride to Kallang Leisure, watched Bride Wars. Movie was awesome, and I'm inlove much with the wedding gown. Bus ride home, and Squadron, you are unreachable.

2009-01-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

Woah, didn't know that IBM has some good view after all. The last time I watched the set was during Squadron's 33rd bdae in skydinning. But today, I witnessed the sunset again. Hehehe at the rooftop, with Naz. One pretty good view, and the atmosphere sets the resort aura. I wish to have a house at Sentosa Cove, least a house which has windows as it's walls, and rooftop with a pool, and a backyard with a garden. And I drive a miniCooper, on top of the BMW. Wahhh, material luxury.

But cut short, time was running out. So we both decided to head home. Met Squadron at Simei, and we rode to CityPlaza, to find the masseuse closed. He's been getting the lower back pain, end of spinal cord for couple of days. But he's staying strong, but I can read your face in pain, macho man ah. Hehehe

Nevertheless, we rode to TM, and he got me a pair of decent jeans from Levi's. Hahah, finally jeans. I think it's been erm, weeks since I last wear jeans? I'm one happy happy lady! Wait, did I just myself a lady?! Hahaha

So we rode to T2, planned for Swensens dinner, but, we detoured to BK instead. Sinful pleasure of Tendergrill. Hahaha wahh, I miss burgers lahh! I miss burgers!

What else, head home lah, gone flat (=

And looking at the picture, wahh I look sooo matured! Like me and Squadron is only few years apart. Hehehe

2009-01-21T23:59:00.000-08:00

A shopping date with Sheera. Met her at TM coz I just figured that there is a La Senza at TM. Hehehe couple of nice lingerie, but we settled for one. Since there was offer of purchase 2, with 2 free, we decided to get ourselves lingerie too, with fid's lingerie and silk robe. Hehehe facinating outfit..

Hot chocolate at Starbucks, to further discuss about the plans for Fid's hen night. Since there's no chalet, we've settled down with the restaurant, and the karaoke plans. Hehehe it's going to be one hen's outing!

2009-01-20T22:48:00.000-08:00

Was buying waffles from East Point. A call from Sheera, what else? We decided to meet up and to look for lingerie for Fid. Nothing much at Blush nor around the tamp central. So we headed back. Hehehehe

I guess only La Senza has the best lingerie in the city.

2009-01-20T13:46:00.000-08:00

Read across this fancy article about Charles and Keith, yup those shoemakers. I was just browsing thinking of getting a pair of stilettos.

Brothers Charles and Keith Wong make shoes that make young women squeal with delight. Over the last eight years, the brothers have built a $20 million-a-year business with 11 stores in Singapore and 20 overseas on stylish shoes. The eponymous shoe label they started is completely homegrown and has humble beginnings.

As teenagers, Charles and Keith worked at their parents’ shoe shop, L&A Trading in Ang Mo Kio Central, doing everything from helping customers to try on shoes to stock-taking. Born two years apart, the Wong brothers overcame their lacklustre academic performance to become a local footwear success story.

Recognizing that shoes from most foreign wholesalers were expensive and unsuitable for smaller Asian feet, they seized on the opportunity, pooled their savings and went into business introducing their own line of contemporary ladies footwear, aptly named Charles & Keith.

They set up shop on 500 sq ft in Amara Shopping Centre which by the end of the first year had raked in $200,000 in sales. After 6 years in the business, Charles & Keith recorded sales of $20 million in 2003.Not content to operate only locally, the brothers turned their attention overseas, and with Charles’s business acumen and Keith’s flair for design it was long before the duo had successfully franchised Indonesia, Australia, U.A.E, Philippines. Charles & Keith has since also entered the retail markets of Thailand, Japan, Myanmar, and Mauritius. Currently, their biggest overseas retailing chain is in Indonesia, with 13 outlets and plans for exoansion.

The Charles & Keith story has not been without its share of difficulties as local footwear companies are for the most part disregarded and perceived as budget & uncompetitive. Charles attributes the success that has been achieved to date to the values of hard work, dedication and mutual trust.

2009-01-19T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was on 7am shift today. My first 7am shift week here. Hehehe, well nothing's different, pretty much the same.

Comes night, Squadron came over after he sent his report. Went for a short running. From Kallang to Marina Promenade. We reached the Flyers from Kallang. Hehehe I was so happy, when I saw that we were nearing the Flyers. Been wanting to jog till there, and Squadron has made my wish come true. Thanks Squadron, you've made my day, everyday (=

Jogged back, and rode back home. On the way back, my soring throat yearns for hot chocolate.

"Papa, mana blh dpt hot chocolate? 7-11 ade kan?"
"Ade, tapi kan tak sedap. Nak starbucks?"
"Starbucks? I think dah tutop. Anyway, mahal lah."
"Takpe lah, I know it's worth it, tho."

So we rode to Eastpoint, to find the Starbucks closed, went by the nearest 7-11, the hot chocolate machine was shutdown. So Squadron brought me to Tamp, only to find that TM Starbucks is closed to. But I was lucky, to have a McCafe nearby. So we bought Hot Chocolate. And I became one happy person, and I suddenly forget that I was shagged.

Hehehe one happy customer from McCafe! But I still prefer Caramel Hot Choco from Strabucks and GJ.

Thank you Squadron!

2009-01-18T23:59:00.000-08:00

Our first pit stop for the day: Novena Square. Well, today was the last day for the race pack collection. We decided to collect it then.

Then from there, after we packed ourselves with much food, we headed to Cash Studio for some vocal practise. Hehehe I guess it's been really addictive, and we plan to make it as our monthly tradition.

Sooo then we started our road journey. Road journey to sending 18letters, from Telok Blanga, to Gim Moh, Clementi to Bukit Batok. Wooahh, sooo farr, till we ended up at Bukit Panjang.

Since we were near to the mall, we gave it a visit. My first visit to Bukit Panjang Mall. It's just a mini mall, but we got couple of things from there. Hehehe bought USB cable and charger, arcade @ Timezone, clothes at Giordano. Well, not mine, but Squadron's. He has been shopping from since he got back from camp. Wahh this old man distressing himself ahh.

Given the time, I didn't get my coffeehouse visit. Sad sadd sadddd.. Wah, I want coffee lah, you know caramel frapp, oorrr hot chocolate, wahh you mean meano evil man. You purposely don't want me drink no coffee ahh.

But I got sandwich from 7-11. Not as good, but at least something. Then we talked. We talked and talked till pass midnight. Hehehe you should have just brought me to the coffeehouse lahh Squadron.

And now I know, why he says I'm a rebel now. Heheheh because he has went thru my phase, and during this phase, he was a rebel, and just like him, I'm one too. Hehehe yay we same same. But now ahh Squadron, you're like taking care of a teenager you know. Hehehe woah, is our age gap that farr?? Hehehe

But I still do ♥ you, Squadron.

2009-01-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

With Squadron, collected my altered pants from N2. Viola! Finally I have jeans to wear, and office pants to addition. Rushed to CDC for my RTT. And yay! I've passed my RTT! That means now, must convert to PDL. Which means now, I must quickly complete my pract and get my licence so I'll get my bike, then I take Class 3 then I get a car, then later no money to get married. Hehehe urgh, I would love to drive the miniCooper convertible. Wahh, then when you drive, your hair will fly fly, then when you stop, your hair will be everywhere, then you'll have instant messy-look. How cool is that? Hehehe

Well, we rode back home, got my stuff, and then we rode to AMK to collect the letters. Then we head to CP, decided to not have YTF, but we went around the mall. So we planned to head to Bugis, to get me Levi's, but we were distracted talking about helmets, so Squadron went to Ah Boy to buy me a black visor. Heheh yay, now my visor is see-proof! And we ended up shopping for helmet. Squadron bought Revo again, coz I haven't had enough wearing it, and we haven't experiment it on it's performance with speed. Kay lah, lets just make it simpler, because I want that helmet.

So from there, Squadron sent me to JE, where I attended the kenduri, and he went to send his letters. The kenduri was a mini one, but with wide food spread. So then, Squadron fetched me after his work, and I lazed at his place while he changed. Almost dozed off at his couch, till his mom asked me to sleep in. Ahh lah, malu lah!

So we rode to Tuas, and experiment with Revo. My head was vibrating and moving side to side vigorously. Hahaha I think the helmet is just for SG rode, not speed. Nasi Lemak for supper, before we rode back home. Alhamdulilah, we reached my deck safely, because we both dozed off while riding, and three times in a row, Squadron swerved to avoid collision with the road barrier. Hehehe

We dozed off under the void deck, till I woke up and realised it was 0430 on Sunday morning! Hehehe

2009-01-16T23:59:00.000-08:00

Squadron didn't have letters to send today. So he fetched me from work, and I ride from IBM to Expo. Hehehe as if I ald owned a liscence, and that is my bike. But it was fun, for a change that instead of Squadron bringing me around, I bring him around. Hehehe

We literally, were stucked on the JL sale. Well, Charles and Keith shoes were going as low as $9! But unfortunately, given my adorable feet size, I didn't manage to get a decent one. But I still bought couple of other things, and I still managed to shop till I drop, and Squadron joined in the fun. But then, I think he shopped more than me. No, I think he always shop more than me. Hah

Dinner at the Indo/Wedding expedition. The pelamin were beautiful, only the models were a lil not professional. But I guess, compared to me, they are much better. Hehehe

And Squadron, bought me makeup from MAC. Well, apparently, the one who is excited to wear makeup. Because the thing that he got for me, are the things he asked for, from compact powder, to mascara to lipstick. Even the owner was like laughing at us, and she went "Takpelah, he wants you to look good for him." I think he fits to be a metrosexual, only that he's a lil lazy when it comes to himself. Woah, when it comes to me, he'll make me do all of those things. Hehehe, eyy, don't blame me if I become less ruggart and more lady kay, you bribed me!

Ride from Expo to ECP. We slept on the stone table, which turned us mid-frozen half way. Because Squadron's shoulder, we had to leave the place and headed home.

2009-01-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

Squadron accompanied me on lunch today. Had lunch at Simei, just for a short hour, before he sent me back to work, and he heading around the east to settle his insurance, and a job interview.

He fetched me after work, and we head to N2, to alter my pants. The aunty was laughing at me lah! My Ralph jeans, I request for her to make it bigger, but my office pants, I request to make it smaller. So I told her, "Aunty, last time I skinny, now I fat already, so must alter back the jeans.." Paisehh! I bet she must be wondering, woah, how many KG has this girl gained? Aunty, I tell you, lotsa and lotsa KG. Since I met Squadron and he kept stuffing, and over stuffing me with food of all kinds, halal ones I meant. But nevertheless, I still have to shed pounds and inches. And we still had cheese fries at Rasa21, even after that.

Dosa tau, kalau seorang suami tak kasi isteri makan.
U bukan I tak kasi mkn, you dah lebih makan! Hahahahahahahaha...

Haiya, we both are gaining weight. Hehehe not that we're lazy bummers, we jog, everyday. When we are not together, we strict our food intake, but when we are together, heheheh diet? What's diet?! So we eat and eat and eat.. In addition to the new halal sushi restaurant, we eat and eat and eat. Heheheh

We rode to Bugis, and Squadron bought for me a high-waisted belt. Then the salesguy there went, "U look very nice with that belt. But it's not too tight right, I mean U can breathe right?" Hehehe yes I can breathe, it looks like im stuffed coz my assets are of plus size. Not big, but plus size. Hehehe

Walked around Bugis Junction, Squadron bought me another tights from Dorothy Perkins. Walked to Levi's and the offer of trading old jeans is still valid! And I've found one nice pair, and best part, you can trade in ANY brand of jeans! That includes the one you bought at Bugis Street for like $30, you can trade it as worth of $50! And you get Levi's. Hoooow good is that? I have soooooo many unwearable jeans, no not that coz I've gained weight, but it's torn at the inner thigh.

To Bugis street and bought stickers for our temporary helmet. Apparently the Revo is not in stock. Sigh, if that stupid theif just repent before he steals our helmet, I bet we'll be looking for stickers only, not another pair. So I got a top from the street. Today's shopping spree was on Squadron! Hehehe mcm best gitu.

Dinner at KFC, then we headed back home. Thanks for the shopping spree, the army bag and running outfits! Hehehe woah, you spent so much on me today!!

2009-01-13T16:18:00.000-08:00

Was browsing by Heng Motor's webby, and I found Squadron old Mr Yellow CBR. Of course, it has been given a new paint job, and now, it's in blue and white. Well, I still prefer the yellow, it looks outstanding. Hehehhe

2009-01-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

Squadron by surprised came by office and fetched me from work.. Didn't have much of enthu in the first place, until after he brought me for dinner at ECP Foodhouse. Had a wide spread of delicacies, from satay, mee kuah, nasi ayam penyet and gong gong, well gong gong may sound a lil weird, but it's a seafood, whose shells looks like a snail's, has a claw and looks like a snail, but hey, it's seafood!! And he bought for me the biggest coconut, bigger than my head! I think it weigh around 3kg, dead load of water and can be shared by two!

And so we decide to walk down our bludging tummies, and check out the sea sport activities there. The cost is reasonable, for hours of experience. It's an attraction to expats, rather than local. But nevertheless, we shall try the sport.

Eh, we try wakeboarding, then kayaking kay.
Sports yg kite minat are all expensive sports seh.
Ah tulah, tapi kate extreme! Hehehe

Detour around and around, before we headed back.

2009-01-12T01:30:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I have to go thru this again. I can't believe you can still question, and suspect me of that again. As much as I have a terror history, I don't judge you by the same way history was to me. Unlike you, I view things as an isolated issue, I take similar incident as a whole new experience. After all these while, after all the things that I have shown, tried, and ammend, you still think I'm unfaithful and naive? You still refuse to place your trust on me, you still think that I'm like your history, that I will behavior how girls behavior typically.

You're just being unfair. Unfair that you don't judge me by how I am, but by based on your history. Unfair that you don't wish to place trust on me, when I've placed my trust on you. Unfair that you still think that way, and always say that I'm unfaithful.

What games you think you're playing?

2009-01-11T22:39:00.000-08:00

After touring and finding, finally Squadron gets to find the Nee Soon camp. With his mom and Wati having to wait 1/2hr on us. His MR today was a proud one. His task, strength and perserverance was in recognition of the whole battalion.

"LCP NS Hisham finished his task with 10kg load, during fasting month."

My cousin was there as well. He had his MR as well, hence, met Aunty Sidah, with Uncle Ami, Zakk and Nadia.

With generous load of photo taking, we headed out to Safra Yishun. After long wait with only his mom and me, he finally received the watch and we send his mom off in a cab.

Rode to Novena, finally registered for the Safari Zoo run. Mr Bean's and we headed to Century, after the sold out movie tics at TM. Ong Bak for the record of violence and heartless.
But the hilarious part of the movie was the start of it:

Eh, thai movie dah start.
Eh? Thai Movie? Movie ape ah? Confirm best..
Ong Bak lah! Eh, you bought the tickets you don't know what movie you are watching?
Hehehehe lupe lahh..

Nak cakap selenge, tak. Blaja pandai. Nak panggil ape eh? Maybe he's just being himself. Hehehehe

After movie, night market for food, then my void deck's for sushi, kebabs and vadeh.

Sent home, and Squadron fetch Sahak from home back to camp. He booked in again tonight.

Raihan has grown up soo fast. He's 6mths now, but he fits to 12mths outfits. I'm glad they love the O'Kosh I bought for him (=

2009-01-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

Kenduri at JEast, with the whole family. In the midst of prayers, Ee came up with fits again. Fits is getting to him on weekly basis. I just hope that he recovers real fast, and that he can move on with life again, after that fateful tragic accident.
Prayers sent, wishes kept hopeful. For those who has lost and love, keep on praying for your lost ones. For those who have survived tragic incident, stay strong and perservere to recover.

I want my old family back to it's old situation. There are too many things happening around me too fast. Slow down.

2009-01-09T22:57:00.000-08:00

With Sheera to T2. While on our way to T3 Popeye's we got pretty much distracted to the stencil colorings. T1 Popeye's dinner, discussed of the events for Fid's Hen night. Pretty much elated to do a chalet/overnight party, but we've got to check couple of things before the night becomes a success.

How about, we create a whole party of us 3, dinner, then party at the chalet, with wild outfits, and bitchy behavior.

2009-01-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

Recieved news yesterday that my Aunt who has been in coma for 6mths, has passed away at 2pm. Took UL today, to head to the funeral. Didn't manage to reach on time, as my sis was always late, so we just went to the Muslim Cemetry. While bypassing the Chinese Cemetry, saw a group of NS Men, having their briefing at the cemetry, wonder what are they doing there.

My beloved cousins has just lost their mother, and I'm terrorized for the day it happens to me. Just hope that they will get better. Condolences to them.

Headed back to Wak Pin's place, to join the kenduri. Nana's coming back today, so me and sis decides to make a move. But we detoured to IMM, and had Body Shop shopping, plus coffee at Coffee Club. The coffee was a disappointment.

Headed back home, and had my routine jog to the Reservoir. Didn't jog the reservoir today, but they've made some changes to the place.

Reached back home, changed and with dad, fetched nana from the airport. Well, I hope that now she's went to the airport, whatever she said of her needs to find something there has been found. Just hope that she's not under some spell. Nauzubillah.

2009-01-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

Met sis and BIL, after work. Bought pair of shoes from DMK. Well, the shoes from DMK this season has grewn a lil nicer, surprisingly. Hehehe

Had pure caramel in Coffee Bean, wadeh from pasar malam, and bus ride to sis place. Rode in the car, back to my place.

Finally get to hear Squadron's voice after he finally called. He passed his PTT, with 45sec late for Silver.

2009-01-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

Was super dooper shagged when I came home last night. Talked to Squadron and he starts to doze off. So I abruptedly ended the conversation. Hehehe so life was bored then, as when he sleeps, he sleeps like a beast. Even bombing doesn't wake him up I guess.

So while I was bored and trying to hack to my sister's laptop, surprisingly Squadron called.

"Hello?"
"Hello mama. Kenape bilik you gelap?"
"Uh? Gelap. Tak lah"
"You pat mana?"
"Bilik nana."
"Kenape bilik you gelap?"
"Uh I pat bilik nana"
"Uat ape?"
"Nak hack laptop"
"Look outside the window lah"

And there I saw a man in green, standing by the zebra crossing light, was Squadron.

Walked down to the deck, and we rode to the Airport. Well, apparently he has nights off today, to book back in tomorrow morning. So instead of going back, he decides to head to my place, since his friend lives nearby, and he'll be going back in with his friend tomorrow.

Parked at T3, tram ride to T2, sat at Starbucks. I think people think he was a regular. The baristas were looking, but I like their service. And their coffee creation was perfect with my hot choco, and Squadron's latte.

Unwind there for a while, before we headed back.

"You going back to Sahak's place?"
"Taklah, maybe I sleep outside"
"Outside? You sms him and check if he's still awake"
"Takpelah, he has a baby in the house."
"Then sleep at my place? I'll ask my parents"
"Tak nak lah, won't be nice"
"Then where are you sleeping?"
"The steps in front of Sahak's place, least it's nearer"

He's such a sweet person. Thanks darling, it was such a pleasant surprise (=

Gd nite papa. Mama going to bed now. Thank U papa for the surprise. Hehehe mcm org aru alik perang, da berbulan tak jumpe..
Papa, tho to U, u may not b a sweet talker, but im alaways mesmerised by your meaningful words. U have shown in actions. U wld even book out tonight to see me and spend time with me, tho U knew U b stranded later.. Kesian now U tido pat stairs, choosing over bed at camp. Thank U papa (=

2009-01-04T23:59:00.000-08:00

Karaoke in the noon, as our start to this new sunday! Hehehe headed to Ming Arcade, has some good voice tuning and melody trackback for Squadron and me. Hehehe it's kinda addictive, and both wanted to stay, since they had not much customers that period, but since we had things to do, so we moved on.

And I didn't know that town has acid rain, just like in jurong island.

Today I followed Squadron around to send the letters he collected yesterday. The job is easy, but it's tiring. You have to get on/off the bike and go up to houses to send the letters. I had butt and ankle cramp. Hehehe and was super shagged when we finished the assignment.

Headed back to AMK, Squadron sent his report, then headed to the petrol station and Squadron bought a new accessory for his X1. Now the wheels have flashing lights. Hehehe

Went to Spize for late dinner. While walking to the carpark, by pass a couple. The girl, look at my shirt and said, "Sunday! Nice Sunday shirt!"

Hehehe, well it's just a plain shirt with Sunday, but thanks babe! Headed back home.

Squadron's on reservist tomorrow!

2009-01-03T23:59:00.000-08:00

Attended my RTT practise in the morning with Squadron. The practise was alright, tho I skipped one last night, I think I'll be fine when the time comes for RTT.

Rode to West Coast, for a hair cut for Squadron. Then breakfast there as well. Bought back food for his mom, headed over to his place. Hehehe, his mom has a talent for sewing, and maybe one day, I shall learn the skill from her. Hehehe
Alisha came over, and that girl has grewn big, only that she was afraid of me, I guess it's be long since I last seen her.

Headed back to my place, changed and headed to AMK, as Squadron collected his letters. To Kun's and Nana's wedding, met couple of people there. The wedding deco was beautiful, the DJ was entertaining and the picture was perfect. Nana looked gorgeous in her evening outfit. Congrats to both of you (=

Headed to Cathay, met Siti and Azmi there to get the Cash Studio's card from them. Didn't catch any movie, as we've planned to head to M'sia later on. Bought Squadron a utility knife. Supper at Mac's then headed to Tuas. Today's ride were pure virgin. Hehehe no speeding, no fast track. Just plain cruising. Seems there were loads of petrol today. Hehehe

Headed back after filling the tank. And the SG riders there kept looking at us. Maybe cause we didn't come in a group. We came alone. Hehehe headed back to Squadron's place, with X1, we headed back.

Had a nap under my void deck while Squadron was playing PSP. I kinda of fell in love with the night's breeze, I feel like laying a mat under my deck and sleep away. Hehehe

2009-01-02T23:59:00.000-08:00

Had dinner with Naz and Junaida while waiting for Squadron to fetch me from work. Time was such peace, as we didn't have to keep on checking the clock as to when break time's over.

With Squadron, rode to Hazel's place, fetch Dol. Made our way to Nana's in Hougang. It's Nana & Kun's solemnization today. Well, another member of Squadron's gang is married, left with Squadron and Dol, the two gay bachelors.

Introduced to Squadron's ITE mates. Compared to his old school mates, they seem more sincere and a great clique. Even at the age 34, his friend Naz, is still in the hip hop arena. Hehehe

Ride to PS, watched Transporter 3 before heading back home. Hehehe

2009-01-01T23:59:00.000-08:00

Ee had his lapse last night. While I was counting the secs to 2009, he had an lapse. Since Squadron had his things to settle, being real sweet he fetched me from home, and sent to to Jurong. Hehehe

Ee seems better today, only that I get worried, since his accident, he has been at home, not working, and has been going through a year long therapy. Just hope he gets better tho.

Squadron fetched me from Aunt's and we headed back (=

Thanks Squadron for sending/fetching me over.